The truth is, I wanted this to be an upbeat, happy post about fulfilling my longstanding wish (the silver beauty on the picture), the kind of posts I used to post around here. I thought it would be easier to push myself, to snap back to the blogger mode. Because I do want to blog. But after I was halfway through, it felt so fake and fake is something I don’t do. It seems my head is still in murky waters when it comes to writing. Which is still so weird to me, being how I feel so positive and happy in real life. Pushing boundaries is a current state in every other aspect of my life, just not in blogging it turns out.
That’s why I decided to do another heart to heart type of thing instead. Those seem to be regular around here now. I will say, pushing myself to actually write is still a step in the right direction. I think I’m finally, slowly coming out of my funk. My brains were in this weird hibernation stage, although my days couldn’t be more full of activities. I guess I needed some kind of mental holidays after exhausting beginning of the summer. Slowly, I’m waking back up, just as the vacation time is ending. Maybe the thought of fast approaching new school year has got me kicking again. Who knows, maybe I’ll be back to business in no time!